The day will come when I write an elegy for Blueboy, but that will have to be when I’m feeling a lot better and when I’ve returned to something resembling my old, former self. As well as writing a commemorative verse for him, I want to further honour his memory by writing about his life and about how it changed mine, so I suppose this is something I can at least make a start on in the form of unpublished notes.
In the meantime, I am only now beginning to truly appreciate how big a part of my life Blueboy was. He accompanied me everywhere, day or night, so I now realise how much he enhanced my appreciation of my surroundings and I often have to face the sad fact of how much I miss him. He imbued my wanderings around the countryside with a gentle euphoria it’s currently impossible for me to describe, but I’m sure that with the passage of time, I’ll be able to do him some form of justice.
Yesterday, for the first time in over a year, I made my way down to a place where I can still literally see Blueboy with no effort and with no psychic ability. Even as he got older and found it harder to walk, we would always come to this quiet sanctuary, where the bank gently slopes down to the cool stream and where Blueboy would splash and drink its sparkling waters. I’d often walk in to the shallow pool with him and do little more than stand there while the dragonflies danced around me and while Blueboy would lazily wander up and down the stream before just standing still, cooling himself down and sending his doggy senses out beyond the confines of his body to explore the wilds and rushes.
Since coming out of hospital, I’ve been preoccupied with my physical health, which is hardly surprising considering the enormity of what I’ve endured, but I’ve always been aware that one of the most important factors in healing is a sense of calm and happiness. This achingly beautiful, shaded pool is an Otherworld sweetly haunted by the kind spirit of one of the best friends I could ever dream of, so it’s an Arcadian retreat I’m blessed to know and which I’ll be visiting more and more often.